What's Been Going On With Me Lately

Well, as it turns out I was having some allergic reactions to the antidressant I was on.  Wound up in the ER twice in the past two months, the latest being a week ago.  The first time my heart got out of a normal rhythm and the lower half of my heart completely shut down, so the ER doctor had to give me a medication in my IV to stop my heart to reset it so maybe my heart would start back up in a normal rhythm...which luckily it did on it's own, but just in case they had all the stuff set up to shock my heart if they needed to.  The joke is since my heart did officially stop beating there for a second, I'm a zombie.  Lol.  Anyways, my psych doctor and I decided that the best thing for me to do was to discontinue the antidepressant and when I go to my next appointment (in a week), he'll put me on a new antidepressant.  So until then...hello roller coaster of emotions!  So far it's been a cry fest.  :(

My bestie had her son, my nephew, on June 24, 2015.  She surprised me and instead of naming him Henry Marcus like she was originally going to, she named him Marcus Raymond.  So now I've gotta get the name Henry out of my head, lol.  He looks like a little sweetheart (due to being ill from the allergic reaction I've been sticking close to my bed- the symptoms have been that bad, yes). 

It would be awesome if I could keep my mind focused on one thing for more than 20 mins or so.  I've been having this problem for years, but it gets worse at times.  Unless I get lucky and zone out while doing something, but that usually only works with knitting and it's usually when I'm knitting something very simple, like garter or stockinette stitch.  Knitting can be cool like that since it has pretty much the same effect on the brain as meditation does.  Now if I'm knitting a cable stitch, forget it, getting in the zone will never happen.  I guess it's just a bit too complex for that.  I do like knitting cables, though, cause they look awesome!

I am hoping to start writing more often again here on my blog.  It gives me the feeling of accomplishing something even when my mind is at it's most scattered.  Even when some posts takes days to write (no matter how small of a post).  Well, until next time...

Note: I don't know why the last half of this post appears to be in a different font from the top half.  ???  I've been writing my posts from my phone this past month, so it's not like this is the first one.  

Freaky Stuff!

Friday night I went to the ER because my heart beat was about 180 beats per minute (it went up to about 190 while I was in the ER) and I wasn't feeling good at all: felt really cold, tingling fingers, every breath was just so tiring, and shortness of breath at times.  My heart was beating so fast it I could feel it actually shaking my body back forth when I sat still.  So the ER drs did a full blood panel, urinalysis, chest x-ray and those all came back good (my heart enzymes came back good which means I didn't have a heart attack).  They did an EKG and saw that my heart rhythm was abnormal.  From what I understand something triggered the top part of my heart to freak out and work overtime which somehow made the bottom part of my heart quit working (the bottom part of your heart is the part that pumps the blood to the lungs and body), which explains why I was so cold and the tingling in my fingers, etc.

The doctors tried to some natural remedies to help my heart beat and rhythm, but those didn't work.  The next step was to try this one medicine (for the life of me I can't remember the name of it) that they have to give ya in an iv and get it to your heart quickly as it is short acting.  The medicine stopped my heart for a second (they had the paddles nearby just in case, not like that comforted me very much since I was pretty freaked out lol) and then when my heart started back up on it's own it went back to a much more normal rhythm and heartbeat.  After a couple of hours (they also gave me some blood pressure medicine) my heartbeat and rhythm were normal so they sent me home with some blood pressure medicine in case it went back up.

I've been at home since and haven't had to go back to the ER or take any of the blood pressure medicine and my blood pressure and heartbeat have remained in the normal range, so YAY!!!!

xoxo,
~Mouse~